Being The Best
Do not enter into judgment with Your servant, for in Your sight no one living is righteous.
Psalm 143:2 (NKJV)
When I took a drawing class in college, my professor would walk around the room, stop our pencils before we were finished, and say, 'Better is the enemy of good.'
During my long 'before Christ' years, I worked diligently to be good and do good for AMTC and my family--unfortunately in that order. Where AMTC was concerned, I wanted to do a good job for the performers and the industry. My desire to be 'better' became a driving compulsion to be 'the best,' and I moved relentlessly forward.
Many people followed me, because the AMTC train was bound for glory. By the world's standards, we were successful. But the world's standards can never measure up to God's standard, so AMTC (then called Actors, Models & Talent Competition) was in a contest it could not win.
'Do not be excessively righteous and do not be overly wise. Why should you ruin yourself?' (Ecclesiastes 7:16)
Where my family was concerned, I also wanted to do a good job. But without reading the Bible or knowing Jesus, my effort was also destined to failure. Our fragile unity turned into divisive war. Everyone lost, and brokenness followed.
In His infinite mercy to my desperate invitation, Christ entered my life. Then I asked Him into AMTC. His next stop? My family. What a party. What a transformation!
I have since learned that 'All of our righteous acts are like filthy rags' (Isaiah 64:6) to a perfect God. On our own, being good enough is impossible. Absolutely impossible is 'best'--because only One can be best or perfect: Jesus.
Now I know that good and better come from God--that 'better' should not become a quest to be 'best'.
My advice to anyone who doesn't feel good enough is this:
1. In Him, you are surely good enough. Not only that, He has a history of promoting people the world calls unlikely.
2. Give up perfectionism. Let Him do the perfecting: first in you, then in your work.
3. If anyone says you are 'The Best,' give it up to Him.