I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.
Great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths...
You have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, and my feet from falling.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
For years, I battled bouts of depression. It was an illogical enemy, because I seemed successful to the world. At night, I would awaken in panic. The smallest problems grew into monsters.
For the former, I saw professional therapists, including a Christian counselor.* For the latter, I hugged a big Bible by my bed, but I didn't think to open It. Depression, anxiety and insomnia ran in my family. My kin got tied to prescription drugs.
As some of you have seen, this tie binds. Between poor effects and side effects, drugs beget drugs which beget more drugs. Or so it seemed for me and my house.
Even so, I was tempted by them, but my mother's words rang in my head: 'Carey, it's true antidepressants make me care less about my problems, but they also make me care less about everything else--even good things.'
Then at my lowest point, I found the highest Man. He lifted those burdens, and I was delivered. God's healing took some time, but I was surely cured. And I got curious. Could what we call genetic predisposition actually be a generational curse?**
Actors, models and talent for Christ: generational curses are as controversial as casting out demons. My beliefs are based on Scripture, prayer, study, experience and observation. I encourage you to investigate.
Depression is epidemic. Mental illness is everywhere.*** Are drugs really our best answer? I'm not telling you what to think, nor to stop any drugs you take... But I urge you to consider. What are God's Words on these matters?
To Be Continued...
* The Christian was a pastor and licensed marriage counselor. I had committed to Christ, but not my husband. Our 30-year marriage was in its final stages, but I was in my first stages as a believer. This pastor/professional never quoted the Bible, never urged us to read the Bible nor said anything relating to God, except for a very brief prayer at each session's end. The sessions proved fruitless.
** Recommended Reading on Generational Curses: Derek Prince: http://www.amazon.com/Blessing-Curse-You-Can-Choose/dp/0800794087
*** Stats on depression: Huffington Post: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/01/20/depression-statistics_n_6480412.html
*** Stats on depression: Screening for Mental Health: https://mentalhealthscreening.org/blog/depression-statistics
*** Stats on depression: Uplift program: http://www.upliftprogram.com/depression_stats.html
P.S. To read the other devotions in this series, please see the Deliverance series.