Carey Lewis Devotions
Saturday, September 29th, 2018
Gotcha's Demons: Worthlessness & Self-Pity
Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.
Jeremiah 31:3 (NKJV)
Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called children of God!
1 John 3:1 (NKJV)
For we are God's masterpiece.
Ephesians. 2:10 (NLT)
Worthlessness is a dangerous demon. He got a nasty hook in me early, as the fat and shy little sister of popular big brothers, John and Bob. We were raised by remarkable parents. Perhaps to their friends, I seemed a misfit.

But my parents didn't think so, supporting me without condemnation, loving me for what I was and could be.*

Worthlessness pulled me harder when they split. I was a not-so-sweet-sixteen rebel: refusing old Southern social customs and struggling to find my place in the world.

Life continued: marriage, AMTC, children, milestones, successes and failures. But the failures tore through my confidence, because my confidence was not in Christ.

Worthlessness reeled me in like a mullet, and self-pity became my companion: a false friend under a cruel master. But my pain became opportunity.

I found Jesus, and He delivered me.

Even so, worthlessness still dangles bait from time to time... until I push him away with Scripture, worship, thanksgiving and praise of The King.

If any of you have faced worthlessness, if he's ever whispered, 'You are nothing...', deny Him in the truth of Jesus Christ: You are treasured beyond any measure.

## Gotcha's Demons: Worthlessness & Self-Pity (Part 42)

* NOTE TO PARENTS/FRIENDS OF SHY, AWKWARD OR "MISFITTING" KIDS: my parents did many things RIGHT in this regard. They put me in acting classes to help me with speaking. They applauded my achievements and never made me feel 'less than.' Although I battled worthlessness, things could have been much worse--if they had not encouraged me in every way they could.

P.S. To read the other devotions in this series, please see the Gotcha! series.

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"I labored, yet not I. By the grace of God, I am what I am, and do what I do' (paraphrase of 1 Corinthians 15:10). I love God's Word. As a late-in-life committed Christian with no Bible training prior to age 51, some people wonder how I'm qualified to write devotions. I wonder that, too. But God loves children and fools for Him. I am both. Ghost Writer? God.

Carey Lewis

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